Let it kill you; let it hasten your decay.
I look back with bloodshot eyes,
Wishing that there could have been a better way.
I left the home we built exactly as you left it.
Picture frames all left in ruin;
A solemn display of a life of conflict.
Every time I see my face, I swear to god I see you there.
So I guess if it's all the same to you,
I think I'm gonna let it go, 'cause what's the use?
“Let's get it back, let's get it back now",
I wanna save us, but I don't know how.
The world kept spinning; I couldn't make it stop for anyone.
I fought against my god complex, and how I wish I could have won.
Four years pass,
And I still feel the same pain coursing through my veins.
I’d hoped that time would make it easier,
Or the drugs would help me keep my mind sane.
There’s not much more that I can chalk up to my name.
I’ve suspended the grief, and let the rest all but bury me.
Every time I see my face, I want so badly to see you there.
I stood face to face with Death to spite the life you gave me.
I’ll admit I’m a fucking mess,
So leave my life to chance and let fate have the upper hand.
Forgive me now for giving up.
I fought against my god complex,
And how I wish I would have won.