I feel the gravity of everything,
Bury me with a weight I couldn’t carry.
I felt it helpless on my own.
When I lose myself in this fever dream,
It scares me more than anything.
How could I shift the blame?
How could I still feel safe?
It’s hope; do you feel it?
Is it something you say,
That makes it all worth it,
In all of the suffering and loss?
'Cause I'm beginning to fall off.
I’ve seen the better days.
I watched them fall away.
There has to be a silver lining,
Or at least that’s what I’m told.
Oh, what I’d give to just let go of this.
To lose the fear and gain the confidence,
'Cause I’m no longer in control,
And we’re hand in hand as we face the end.
I’ll leave this world as it left me;
Bitter and haunting —
I can’t escape the fact,
That this is how I’ll be.
I’ve not even the memories,
All fleeting, without me.
Left with nothing more,
Than just an endless sleep.
I’d pull out my heart,
And drain the air from my lungs,
If it meant that we could just be done,
With the pain and this distance.
Can we even fucking fix this?